It's like trying to measure a distance without a tape measure or ruler

And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
~My December Linkin Park

I think I have a personality disorder or something. After Neal and I watched Encino Man I started laughing really hard and I couldn't stop. I was laughing over nothing. Then Neal said I was too loud and I immediately started crying, like manic-depressive style. And now things are weird.