Steph's Suitcase

What's going on in Steph's life and her random musings... for anyone who gives a monkey.

Monday, March 31, 2003

My advisor is such a JERK. Here's an email I sent him:
I'm a first year computer engineering student, and I understand the advising meeting is this Wednesday. I won't be attending because I want to see the movie in Fisher and require getting tickets early, which would mean I'd have to leave half the meeting. I don't know any computer engineering students I'd be able to get the information from. Is there any way I can get the information I will miss? Also, I am ahead in my math classes so I'm not sure what class to take in place of the lin alg/diff eq. So far I have decided on the engineering statistics since that seems to be the only thing I can take. Is this what I should be doing? I also want to consider the enterprise program but I don't know what classes to take for that or how to fit them in my schedule for next year. How can I find this information? If we should set up a meeting to discuss these things that's fine.

Here's what I got in response from him:
A very important part of any engineering education is learning to set priorities.
That's his whole email. He's my ADVISOR. He's supposed to be ADVISING me.

I'm angry, so this is what I send in response to that:
Well, I emailed you in advance so I could see the movie and learn the information that would be important to know for next year. To me it seems better to do both things I would like to do, than only one. I figure that since you are my advisor then you should be around to advise me whenever I need it. However, since you are unwilling to help I will try to seek assistance elsewhere.

The weird thing is that he sent a copy of his email to me to the department head. Why? Is he trying to get me in trouble? I hope the department head sees that my advisor is a jerk and won't help me and will fire him. No one likes him.

Saturday, March 29, 2003

This is interesting.

Friday, March 28, 2003

I hear a meteor broke up in the atomosphere a couple nights ago and landed in Illinois. I'm so jealous of those who saw it! That would be one thing I definately want to see. Dang being in Michigan.

I hate snow when it's not in its respective season. It's almost APRIL for crying out loud! They had classes optional because of it, but of course I went. It has been snowing nonstop since last night. Whatever happened to our nice 50 degree weather?

My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Peeping Joe Teapot, Yo.
What's yours?
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Wednesday, March 26, 2003

I agree with this . I recently saw a poll asking if war is un-American and the majority said yes. That's bogus! To me that implies that it's American to be at war which sounds silly.

The world cultures exam kicked me. On a happy note, the last cs lab where I didn't finish and ran out of time and didn't work when I ran it got a 100 out of 100, so I'm shocked. I'm guessing my computer didn't like running the application, because I didn't actually run it at the lab. But still-- wow.

Song of the day ~ Faint by Linkin Park

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

Update on Neal: He had a fever of 102 which is going down thankfully due to tylenol. He has been alternating with the chills and getting sweaty. He called the doctor and because he has no car to get to Hancock, he has to wait till tomorrow. His appointment is at 10:10. I gave him all the advice I could about getting better. He might just have the flu, but only the doctor knows.

Song of the day ~ Going Under by Evanescence

Monday, March 24, 2003

[10:01] neot45: awesomerific
[10:02] Steph: nice word
[10:03] neot45: yuppers
[10:03] Steph: i just got nail polish on my jeans
[10:03] neot45: nice one slick
[10:04] neot45: you and nail polish = bad
[10:04] neot45: you should do you nails in a bathtub naked, so that way nothing will get ruined
[10:04] Steph: lol
[10:05] Steph: Erinn was wondering why I keep cracking up
[10:05] neot45: cause your a hyena
[10:06] neot45: thats why

I haven't written in awhile. So update: Saturday I found out Eric and Karyn are getting a divorce and I was affected more than I expected. Saturday and Sunday I wasn't happy at all, and I kept crying. THey went out for 5 years and that didn't seem to help any. I'm afraid the same could happen to Neal and I. Neal is stressed out about his classes. He also might have bronchitis. He's going to see if he can get an appointment with the doctor tomorrow. I spilled pink nail polish on the carpet. At home before the new carpet I had spilled blue on the carpet, my sheets, and my nightstand. It never came out. Maybe I shouldn't do my nails anymore.

Song of the day
~ Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park

Friday, March 21, 2003

"Neal, you do know your girlfriend sounds like a Hyena." ~Erinn

"...your breast friend Marilyn Manson..." ~Erinn

Question on quiz: Who was the leader of North Vietnam?
My answer: Ho Chi Minh, the coolest guy EVER like Napoleon!

I laughed all the way from Dillman back to my room. I had trouble walking. It was so much fun! Erinn kept laughing at me laughing.

Song of the day ~ 5000 Ways to Die by Nerf Herder

Thursday, March 20, 2003

I didn't finish my cs lab. I feel like a failure, because I couldn't even get most of it right. It was 8:30 when I finally figured out how to do things, and I only had half an hour left. I've never not finished a lab before. I have with physics, but that's not my major. This is half my major and thus I should be understanding it. It's as if I failed a class. I can't do that. I just CAN'T. I guess I put too much pressure on myself. I can't NOT put pressure on myself.

Song of the day ~ It Doesn't Matter by Alison Krauss and Union Station

Today in recitation my TA told the class that our grades were based off of 4 things (exam, attendance, web assign, and quizes). He said that our grade for the class is our lowest out of all of these, so if you get A, A, AB, and C your grade would be a C. This is COMPLETELY different from what the syllabus says, and is also completely unfair. I emailed the main teacher asking him about it since this is so bogus.

Additionally, I was trying to make a tentative schedule for next semester and it turns out I MUST have an 8 AM class because 2 of the classes I'm required to take are only offered at 2 times, both being at either 8 or 10. It sucks!

Wednesday, March 19, 2003

"I don't know how I hacked up blood when I had a kidney." ~Some random guy in the hall

"Rachel, I've found your marbles. They were in the boy's bathroom." ~written on the annoying Rachel's door

"If you do not read this, your email will stop working at 4:00 PM on Monday, March 24, 2003." ~from an email I got
That's nice to know. So if I didn't read the email my email would still be working? Or if it stops, not reading the email isn't going to tell me why. I think that statement was really bogus.

Tuesday, March 18, 2003

The government decided to take part in the military action with a submarine and a corvette and a medical team." ~online article
"Thanks for the use of your corvette...When we see Saddam we're going to run him down with our corvette." ~Erinn

Sunday, March 16, 2003

"If time were a solid/viscous fluid i would hold it" - derek in response to the question of if i had too much time on my hands.

"I can never find South Asia when I want to." ~Erinn
"It goes in a black hole." ~Me

"Dammit, why can't it [India] just be India?" ~Erinn

THE STEPH HAIKU (2nd person haiku)
Consideratly kind
Nice to the point of divine
She always is like derek make me laugh, derek make me smile, derek write me a haiku, derek do my homework, derek kill that bear, derek join a circus, derek jump off that bridge, derek prove to me that gravitational constant is really constant, derek defy physics and levitate, derek turn into a squirrel, derek start a intriguing conversation about politics and how they relate to society as a whole while taking into effect the peer pressure of teenagers and underage drinking while at the same time doing a backflip and doing the im a little teapot hand motions, derek make a weather machine to make it hot here. So i do cause its fun and it makes me feel useful.

Neal and I went to the SDC to play badminton but they wouldn't let us because a court had to be reserved at 3. Discouraged, we went to the weight room and tried to build up my arm muscle. I could only use 10 pound weights I have that little arm muscle. I now know why I don't exercise. It's because I get discouraged that I'm not good and I can never be good. We did the bikes and Neal said I was slow and he could see why John was always ahead of me. I bike! I rode almost every day last summer after I was allowed to (because of my heart surgery) and it obviously didn't help. Plus John has racing tires and I don't. If I can't go faster, what's the point? I don't want my heart to be an excuse. I want to be athletic like everyone else.

"Ever wonder what we do? Well, here's your chance. Members of the group will be performing live homosexual acts in the MUB, see if you can find us." This is from a flyer Erinn and I got in the mail. What kind of acts are these? Play kind of acts or relationship kind of acts? It seems odd...

"Time to calibrate your gaydar. Head over to the West McNair lounge to test your identification skills. Can you pick out the straight person(s) from our panel?" This doesn't seem right... Apparently this week is Pride Week.

I should clarify that the frat incident was not the cause of the worst night of my life.

Additionally, I don't want to talk about it so don't ask me.

Today is so warm that I'm in an EXCELLENT mood. Yesterday was the same. It's at least 54 degrees out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"Nobody ever takes a photograph of something they want to forget." ~One Hour Photo

"We all need mirrors to remind ourselves who we are." ~Memento

Song of the day ~ The Good Life by Weezer

Saturday, March 15, 2003

"Remember that Muslim I didn't know?" ~Me, referring to the type of Muslim Shiah that I hadn't heard of

"How quickly our penis leads us astray." ~Erinn, while we were watching Swimfan

"It's Steph! She's small and white!" ~Derek singing the Steph Song

Things are different. I don't think they'll be the same.

Yesterday night I went walking past the frats alone and one of them threw water balloons at me. Last night was one of the worst nights of my life.

Friday, March 14, 2003

It's WARM! 52 degrees, beautiful! I can go outside without a coat! I'm so excited!

Ewwwww. Erinn and I brought melba to wc because we were hungry. Her's had a bug in it and mine had weird cobwebby stuff. She had eaten a piece before she saw the bug, and we had both eaten the stuff on Monday. It was so sick! As soon as I got back I threw out ALL my melba. I don't trust it anymore, and I did have it for a long time. Yuck, so nasty.

Thursday, March 13, 2003

The Durst (first of the haiku about people)
You would think him cool
Think he is a good person
Well your wrong he is a great person who makes hilarious drunken quotes drinks Skyninkugels and invents things like asswater while at the same time being a effective leader in the delta tau family, HIM AND HIS GARGANTUAN PENIS WHICH HE HAD TO CUT OFF HIS RIGHT LEG FOR, thats right his right leg is his penis he walks on it and has full range of motion, he who also chases a moose with a fork but dont worry that moose isnt a moose its grizz and you would think grizz is a kind of bear well its not its a person so there, you dont know it but your head exploded 30 seconds ago.

Wednesday, March 12, 2003

"Plastic surgery was not invented for Michael Jackson." ~ Michael Jackson

I encourage yo' ass work homework problems wit other muthas, but make sho yo' ass understand how solve izzall da problems as yo' ass will has do similar problems by yourself on da midterms 'n final exam, know what I'm sayin'? ~CS ghettofied

"I saw Donny Osmond with the devil." ~The Crucible

"Remember at sea camp when Nicole saw Aaron in the water and she thought he was me and was about to ask why I was topless? I guess we all look like Aaron, deep down inside. " ~Melissa

My linear algebra/differential equations teacher changed his clothes. During linear algebra he always wore blue corderoy pants and a green shirt and suspenders. Now for differential equations he wears tan corderoy pants and a tan shirt, no suspenders. It's like he has an outfit for each class.

Song of the day ~ Every Time by La Ley

Tuesday, March 11, 2003

My linear algebra final raped me. I feel like I had a thousand swords shoved up my ass. It's worth 40%, and hopefully everyone did bad so he'll curve it. I hope it's not a true curve though, because that could ruin me. At this point I have to get an 90% on the final to get an A in the class. If I get below a 65% I get a C in the class. Hopefully I did better than that, but I highly doubt it. This was the worst final EVER.

Monday, March 10, 2003

I forgot to say that on Wednesday I think it was, or Friday, I made fried marshmallows. Yummy.

Yesterday was the most interesting day ever. There were 6 of us crammed in an SUV. We almost hit a deer twice. Jim drove half the way to his house and he drives crazy. It scared us all with his 80 mph driving in 4-wheel-drive on bad roads. I thought I was gonna die. After we got to his house we split up into 2 cars: Alice, Neal, and I in one and Jim, O, and Dan in the other. They smoked pot the whole time and got quite stoned. When we arrived I was in the elevator with O and Neal for about 2 minutes. Neal didn't smell anything (he must have bad senses) but I smelled the weed and when I got back to my room I realized that not even smoking it but just smelling it got me high. I was jittery, my heart was pounding, and I was moving around really fast. After at least 10 minutes Neal came down and I wouldn't shut up. I was talking really fast, and then I just couldn't stop giggling. I kept saying "insane!" He said something about his butt hurting (or something else, I can't remember but it was along those lines) and I said "That's because it's INSANE!" I kept saying "I'M INSANE!" I danced around in circles flailing my arms and giggled and giggled and giggled. It took awhile for it to wear off, but when I did I decided I don't ever want to get drunk or high. I'm too scary that way. Neal kept laughing at me.

From Derek:
Go on vacation
Get a cabin in MIO
Get attacked and mauled by giant wild turkeys and the only way to fight them off is to blow a bubble around them and pop it much like the not so known about ninetndo game called bubble bobble and then collect the powerups they drop to become a more powerful dinosaur

Sunday, March 09, 2003

It's funny, right after I said it was raining it turned to hail and then snow. I finally got to talk to Melissa, but then someone called while I was on the phone and it was for my mom, so I gave it to her and then she accidentely turned off the phone instead of switching it back to Melissa. I still didn't have Melissa's phone number so I had to wait for her to call me back, which she didn't do, so I had to go online to get the phone number from people but then when I called Sarah had called her so she had to call me back.

Sarah, Neal, Jessa, and I went to Elgin's musical. It was Mame. It was ok, not as back as I was afraid it was going to be. Neal liked it which was surprising for someone who refuses to watch musicals. Afterwards we went to Spring Garden to eat and talked to Kim on the phone about Johnny Cash and other things. It was great great great fun.

I go back today. I should arrive at mtu around 9.

Saturday, March 08, 2003

It's raining. I haven't seen rain in months. I almost wore a skirt today because it's warm.

Melissa never called yesterday. It seems like we won't be able to talk. I had a hard decision to make yesterday-- should I leave for school today or tomorrow? I decided to leave tomorrow, even though it may be a crowded car and I won't get back till 9, because I'm going to the Elgin musical tonight and it should be great fun. I always go to the musicals. Sarah and Jessa are going, and possibly Neal too. Sarah came over last night so I could go through her pictures of her artwork and other things. I'm excited to take them back and put them on my computer.

Friday, March 07, 2003

As predicted, Melissa called me Wednesday when I wasn't home. I've been awfully busy lately. Wednesday I sat around being bored, went to my allergist appointment, picked up my mom, then we went to get my birthday present, a digital camera. It's about time I got one. My current camera sounds like it's eating the film when it rewinds, and I have to hold it together with duct tape. My new camera is truly cool, with the ability to create short movies with sound. I have a feeling I will use the camera more, knowing that I can delete pictures that come out wrong. I'm not a particularly avid photographer, and I have no sense of art. Anyway, after that I tried to nap then went to church where I was reminded of how I dislike my pastor's sermons. All in all I tried to nap 5 hours on Wednesday and failed miserably. Perhaps it's because lately I've been sleeping badly. I woke up at 7 yesterday, and all this week I have been waking up insanely early. Not to mention the nightmares that have been accompaning me. Not entirely pleasant.

Yesterday Neal came over so we could go to the mall. I was mad at him for awhile because he came later than I expected and since I had been up sincce 7 with nothing to do I was quite crabby. I also had maybe 5 hours of sleep the night before. The good news was that Bee finally payed him back so now only Shorty owes him money. When Neal arrived I had to take a couple pictures of him to finish off the film in my ghetto camera. We dropped it off after lunch and I should pick that up sometime today (and hopefully Melissa won't call while I'm gone). We went to fox valley mall to see Karyn and have her fix my charm bracelet, but she wasn't there. Magically the guy who we talked to fixed one of the charms in about a minute without really doing anything, which was surprising since Neal and I both worked on it for at least 5 minutes each and couldn't fix it. He's going to have my frog put on, and tell Karyn to put the picture in my locket. She works part-time now because she's studying to be a teacher. My parents will have to send up the bracelet or something. After that we walked around a bit. Neal got his watch, which fits a lot better than his old one and won't fall off. It's also holographic. ^_^ I got a bikini (at Neal's request and my mom's-- she says that I need to flaunt what I have). I personally think my stomach isn't flat enough to pull it off, and my waist isn't small enough. I do wish I remember what the measurements are that guys supposedly think are good, because I think I'm close to that (or at least wish t be). I also bought some shorts since I gained weight. The funny thing is that before when I was a 5 I could never find size 5's and now I'm a 7 and I can never find 7's. It's like the whole world grew fat with me. Also which I find weird is that in missus I'm a 6 which is equivalent to junior's 5 (supposedly, all the tags say so) but 5's don't fit me. I think it should be 6/7 not 5/6. At any rate, when I was trying the stuff on some lady kicked Neal out of the changing room (there was a seat there and I was going to have him see which bathing suit he liked best) because she thught he was going to peep at her. She was like in her late 40s, I doubt he'd do that. He was just sitting! I was unable to have him tell me which looked best on me so I had to judge for myself and since I think I don't have the right body, it was quite a hard process. Anyway, after that (or rather, it occured before) Neal bought me my birthday present, a tanzanite ring and necklace. It was a set on sale, and set in white gold which is my favorite. They look really pretty and I love them. The chain for the necklace is quite thin though so I have to be careful that I don't break it. We walked around the mall some more. I stopped at Bath and Body Works so I could get some of the wall fragrance things for our room, and I picked one that smells like pina colada. Very good. ^_^ Then we walked some more and then went back to my house. We had dinner (Neal's first taste of Connie's pizza) and played cards, then sat through Bush's stupid conference thing since Survivor was supposed to be on after it. After Survivor we hung a bit then he left. I was getting tired by then since I was up a long time. On a side note, Ruby-Lemonade is REALLY good.

As of today? So far nothing. I slept till 8:30, an improvement. I remember waking up at 7-something and hearing Amica moving around and people asking where she was. I wasn't too concerned because I knew she wasn't in my room. I read magazines till 10 then took my shower and here I am now, online. I can't do any of my homework since the computer freezes every time I try to print the physics and I had no idea how to get farther on my cs. That reminds me, I was supposed to have Neal try to help me. Dang. As of yet I have no idea when I'm going back to school. Alice leaves on Sunday and she could be taking anywhere between 4 (if I go) or 6. Neal is supposed to tell me who's going, because 5 was cramped in the SUV. She would be taking a van if there were 6 of us, but it would still be somewhat cramped since we each have our own bag. My family is 5 and in our van we're fine, but my parents share a bag and usually so do Alli and Laura. I think 6 would be tight with all of our stuff. My parents seem very inclined to take me but that would mean leaving either tonight or early tomorrow morning (5-ish). Alli wants to come with. I'm torn, because that would be I'd be at school all alone because I think Neal and Erinn are going back on Sunday. Neal better call me today with the goods.

Tuesday, March 04, 2003

Go to, then keep refreshing until you get Orlando Bloom's voice. Mmmm.

So yesterday I had no internet access which SUCKED. Here's been my week: Saturday night I went to Janet's house to hang with her and Jessa. We watched John Q, which is a really good movie. I drove without incident (except for me going 10 over at a curve because I was having so much fun ^_^ ).

Sunday Neal came over and he joined me and my family for dinner at Famous Dave's (best buffalo wings EVER) and then we saw Shanghai Knights. Laura and I couldn't stop giggling through the whole thing. I love Jackie Chan and Owen Wilson. They make a great team. Neal and I hung out after that for awhile, after I exposed him to girl scout cookies he had never had (Carmel Delights. They have coconut which he dislikes, yet he loved the cookie. Odd.) and we had stale angel food cake (which wasn't actually that bad).

Yesterday I spent 4 hours on my cs and only succeeded in making my ball (we're creating a pong game) move to the right and never come back. I have given up for now. If I turn it in as is I can get a maximum of 65 points, which is at least passing, even though it's not what I'm looking for. I'm going to have to ask people for help. We can work with a partner but I'd work with Ryan and he wasn't starting it till during break which won't work if we're supposed to work together. Oh well. I also went to the OB Gynie and had an interesting incident. She renewed my birth control pills, but they were for a different pill than i'm taking. We called them and asked why they renewed a pill I'm not taking and were told that's what they wrote down I got prescribed. The odd thing is that I was given samples of what I'm taking now, and have renewed it before which means I didn't get a prescription for that other pill. Also, I magically had 3 more renewels when the last time I renewed it said I had no more.

Today I went to the engineering show with Neal, his dad, and my dad. We ended up losing Neal's dad for over 4 hours. He was talking to the UPS guy so we went walking ahead, continually going back to see if he was still there. When he wasn't, we waited at the end of the aisle to wait for him to catch up but we never saw him walk by after half an hour. We then spent the next hour searching for him, gave up and ate lunch, then went to the other area for 3 hours. We left a note at the message board telling him to meet us there at 3. When we got there a little before the note was still there, so he hadn't seen it. Then magically at 3 he popped out of nowhere and was running off. I could only point, being shocked at seeing him. My dad ran after him and stopped him. He has an uncanny ability to hide. Oh, and this morning Amica was whining at my dad's door for over a half hour while he was taking a shower. She kept barking and whining and I felt so bad for her. When he finally let her in she grabbed one of my mom's white gloves and then promptly left. All that for a glove. We can't find the glove either, so we suspect she brought it outside and dropped it in the snow. Speaking of snow, I highly enjoy the 4+ inches we're getting right now.

Saturday, March 01, 2003

Laura failed to tell me that Neal called while I was gone. I found out 45 minutes after I got home, but I had just started eating a peanut butter sandwhich so I had to finish that first. Then grandma called and wanted to talk to me so I had to go through that and then my dad had to talk to her and by the time I called Neal it was busy. Then I tried again and his mom said he had just left for who knows where. He's probably with Bee or Shorty. I went to the mall today with my mom to get jeans and shirts. Believe it or not, but I actually found jeans that fit well! I also bought several cute shirts and new sunglasses since the screw in my current ones is starting to come out. I got a cute necklace and earrings, too. All green. I don't have enough green in my wardrobe.