Steph's Suitcase

What's going on in Steph's life and her random musings... for anyone who gives a monkey.

Thursday, September 25, 2003


I don't feel like doing anything at work. Not a thing. The only thing I can do is study for my dsp exam but that's on Wednesday and we're reviewing Monday so I have plenty of time to do it. I'm doing laundry today. I have enough underwear left to last me till Saturday, and yet I have like 5 shirts left. It's because I bought some and now it's getting cold so I'm starting to wear my long sleeves. I'm very pink today. I was bored and skipping lunch because it sucks and I'm not hungry, so I put makeup on.

Friday, September 19, 2003

my hip hurts right now, like the joint needs to crack. it sucks.

Absolutely NO ONE did misaddressed mail today. The bin is completely full, which pisses me off because the first thing you're supposed to do is misaddressed mail. looks like I won't be writing my novel anytime soon.

Thursday, September 18, 2003 People's blogs are disappearing... Alli's, Liz's, it's scary. I don't want mine to disappear because it has sentimental value. I'm going to make sure I post periodically just to keep this alive until I can back-up my entries.

people keep visiting me at work! Kim, Neal, and Erinn! I feel loved. I broke the copier briefly. There was a paper jam and I didn't know how to fix it but Adam did so that was good.

Tuesday, September 16, 2003 I forgot to give the link to my live journal. Hopefully that is it. Last night I had a dream that I told Tim he smelled and that he better stay away from me. I almost told him that to his face today. Someday it's going to slip out and I'm going to be in trouble. It's going to take me awhile to get used to live journal. I almost don't want to leave this one behind. They just got some new features, after all. The thing is... I want comments. I want people to be able to comment on my entries. Maybe I'll alternate between the two.

Rock me Amadeus

He was the first punk ever to set foot on this earth.
He was a genius from the day of his birth.
He could play the piano like a ring and a bell
And ev'rybody screamed:
Come on, rock me Amadeus.
I'm feeling very social today. I talked to Andy, Robyn, Ryan, Dan, Dave, and of course my suitepeeps and roommate and Neal. I'm in a good mood, compared to my stressed mood of yesterday. I'm sooooooo hungry. Grilled cheese today! YEAH!!! Mmmmm, grilled ham and cheese. Marie gave me a code for live journal. Since live journal lets you leave comments and blogger doesn't and live journal lets you post pictures and blogger doesn't unless you ftp (blogger's getting better... i might keep both for awhile) i'm gonna switch over and see how i like it.

Monday, September 15, 2003

I forgot to mention, I got an 89 on my program that took me 9 hours and that I thought wasn't going to compile.


So I've been wearing a black sweater all day over a white tank. It was really hot in revisions so I took it off and found black fuzz all over my skin, my shirt, and even in my armpits making me look incredibly hairy when i recently shaved. It was quite gross, so I had to put it back on. I got a bill from mtu telecommunications and it says I owe -2.04 but I have no idea why I somehow overpaid by 2.04 and how I'm supposed to collect that money, so I called and no one was there so hopefully they'll call me back.

things are good today

Sunday, September 14, 2003

It's like trying to measure a distance without a tape measure or ruler

And I
Just wish that I didn't feel
Like there was something I missed
And I
Take back all the things I said
To make you feel like that
~My December Linkin Park

I think I have a personality disorder or something. After Neal and I watched Encino Man I started laughing really hard and I couldn't stop. I was laughing over nothing. Then Neal said I was too loud and I immediately started crying, like manic-depressive style. And now things are weird.

no more markers in my soup

w00t! Dan my protege stopped by so I got to have my discussion with him and ahve a meeting set up for next week as well so all is well. ^_^ Got some lyrics from the song in my head:
Aimed for the Milky Way, then got stuck in a traffic delay
Gridlock around the clock, no-one really gives a
Forced out of my home, to a different zone
Left me all alone.
Tradewinds ~ super furry animals
Actually writing my novel now, impressive.

unforgetful you

So I attempted my cs but the demo wasn't working and without the demo I have no idea what I'm supposed to do so I quit. Revisions took forever because it was so open-ended: write at least a 1 page paper no paragraphs and .5 margins on success, happiness, and tragedy. It took me over an hour to write it. Then I went to McNair to meet with my protege. The meeting was supposed to be an hour but things went quick so it was 15 minutes. My other protege still hasn't called or shown up and I'm supposed to meet with him by today, and again this coming week. He's quite a delinquint and doesn't return emails or phone calls or anything. Then I sat around and played neopets for a long time. Finally I played rummy with Marie because she was avoiding homework. It was 4:30 when I called Neal to tell him to get his butt down for dinner. The only reason I went was to have the rice pudding because the rest of it was crap. Unfortunetely (and SOMEONE'S GONNA DIE) there wasn't any which got me quite upset. We kept joking that Neal better watch out.

Saturday, September 13, 2003

good day

I watched Neal's softball game today. He did very well; they won. Brunch was pretty good but the bacon was overcooked. Then we hung out for a bit then watched Center Stage. It made me wish I hadn't quit ballet, jazz, and tap. We just had dinner. Mmmm, it was good. Egg rolls, chicken strips, mexican rice (just like my dad makes!), corn (cold, like I like it), and banana cake.

Friday, September 12, 2003

you suck, and that's sad
you are the "you suck, and that's sad"
happy bunny. your truthful, but can be a bit

which happy bunny are you?
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Say Anything...

What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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I've never heard of this movie but it looks like John Cusack is in it and I like him so cool.

The Italian Job was crowded again. Will I ever see that movie in a crowded theater? It was so crowded we never found Dan's friends so it was just Dan, Neal, and I. Halfway through a bat started flying around.

is this the only freakin' song on this quiz? everyone gets it

You are "Bowl of Oranges". You see life
to more than what most people do and you
genuinely care about people. You feel art and
music is the sure way of lifting your spirits.
You wish others could have appreciation like
you do, but, unfortunately, you are probably
the only one.

Which BRIGHT EYES song are you?
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chain holding jack
Good stuff, you are "Wedding? I love
weddings! Drinks all around." You're the
life of the party and nothing gets you down,
not even certain death at the hands of your
zombie nemesis or the Navy. Come to think of
it, realism isn't your strong suit...

Which one of Captain Jack Sparrow's bizarre sayings from Pirates of the Caribbean are you?
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it's good to know i'm in the right place

MTU Logo
Yea for being a geek! You belong at Michigan Tech!
You belong with others just like you, who value
studying and actually don't mind the insane
snow that Tech gets. You might want to brush up
on your Greek language, because Greek life is
big here. Be prepared for February and Winter
Carnival - a festival dedicated to drinking and

Which Michigan College/University Should You Be At?
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I forgot for like the 5th time this week to bring my checks down to mail. I need to mail my car payment and my paycheck. :P Do I have to file taxes twice? I hope not... I hope my dad knows what's up with that. I'm a bad mentor. I am supposed to meet with Dan this week and I haven't and it's already Friday. I emailed him a few days ago and he never responded, and I left a message today.

Speaking of Dans, Dan-who's-in-my-class imed me today and asked me to join him and his friends to see the Italian Job at 8:30. Neal and I were planning on going then anyway, so Neal and I are going with Dan, Chuck, some guy named Travis, and a bunch of people we don't know but may find out we do. This will be interesting.

Wednesday, September 10, 2003

Talk Like A Pirate Day - Sept. 19

Talk Like A Pirate Day - Sept. 19: "You are The Cap'n!

Some men are born great, some achieve greatness and some slit the throats of any man that stands between them and the mantle of power. You never met a man you couldn't eviscerate. Not that mindless violence is the only avenue open to you - but why take an avenue when you have complete freeway access? You are the definitive Man of Action. You are James Bond in a blousy shirt and drawstring-fly pants. Your swash was buckled long ago and you have never been so sure of anything in your life as in your ability to bend everyone to your will. You will call anyone out and cut off their head if they show any sign of taking you on or backing down. You cannot be saddled with tedious underlings, but if one of your lieutenants shows an overly developed sense of ambition he may find more suitable accommodations in Davy Jones' locker. That is, of course, IF you notice him. You tend to be self absorbed - a weakness that may keep you from seeing enemies where they are and imagining them where they are not.

What's Yer Inner Pirate?
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Tuesday, September 09, 2003

W00t! Those socks that I didn't have matches to last laundry day? I suddenly found them! I don't know how I found them, but I'm excited.

last night wind symphony

So that girl who made the copies: she gave me the originals, yay! She played bassoon today and is going to switch every other day until both girls have bassoons. Anyway, this girl is absolutely terrible. She played in several rests, she's always off a beat and while we had the same music she was never playing the same notes as me. She'd be playing them lower or something. Several times she'd play soft then one or two notes really loud out of nowhere. It was rediculous and quite annoying.

Monday, September 08, 2003

apparently i like drums and changing my hair color

Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Your Name
Band NameColdplay
TrademarkHair Colour Changes Constantly
Love InterestYourself
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Which Band Should You Be In? by couplandesque
Your Name
Band NameRadiohead
TrademarkHair Colour Changes Constantly
Love InterestThe Guitarist
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i have a feeling that i'm going to get a bad grade on cs. dan tested mine and it wouldn't compile, but it compiles fine on mine. i'm worried, plus my test class doesn't test everything and i'm not allowed to change it in case something happens to it and they graded wrong which means i'm a bit screwed.

why, why why?

At 4:45 AM I woke up with one of the worst migraines I've ever had. I wanted to cry. I felt like puking. I was cold but was sweating. I tried to sleep but failed. At 5 I climbed off the loft and went to bathroom and took 2 extra-strength tylenol (how come they never sell anything in regular strength?). I tried to sleep on the bouch. 15 minutes later I took some aspirin. Tried to sleep some more. Hung out in the bathroom hoping I'd puke. Finally at 6 I fell asleep. I woke up a little before my alarm feeling better. I turned it off and layed down and then immediately my head was throbbing again. I skipped my 8 am since I printed off the notes. I went to my 9 am, where I felt still nauseous. Skipped 10 am class and napped instead. Now I feel better except for the throbbing in my head whenever I stand up or sit down or basically change altitudes.

Sunday, September 07, 2003

You are...

You are...: "

According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You? Test...


ewwwwwwwwww, cs

my mom gave me the link to a cute page. Click on smarty pants.

At 10 PM I have officially given up on my cs program. I ahve been working on it since 1. I got to the point where in order to fix 2 things 5 other things got errors, plus I have some extra nulls. Don't bother trying to understand the program. I just hope I have enough of it done to at least get a B.

I feel extremely stressed out. I've got a job where I work almost 20 hours a week, plus my 17 credits, plus my 2 hours a week mentoring, plus SWE which I'm going to join, and HARO which will hopefully give me some info and I was going to be on softball but I decided not to and there was going to be something else but I have forgotten what. In short, the only free time I have to myself is some odd hours during the day. Here's the breakdown:
Sunday all day for homework
Monday I have 4-8 free for homework and then 10-bed free
Tuesday 3-bed so that means laundry day
Wednesday 4-8 and 10-bed
Thursday 4-bed so loads of homework getting done
Friday 4-6 8-bed
Saturday anytime before 6
So you see, considering how cs took my 9 hours to do, that means that I have lost at least 2 days working on cs homework, plus 3 hours for my 3 revisions papers I write a week, plus an hour reading revisions, plus an hour doing digital logic homework, plus at least 3 hours for dsp because it blows and is hard, plus an hour doing prelab for ee2303, plus an hour on stats homework plus 2 hours for mentoring... lets see how that adds up
19 hours work this week
+ 56 hours sleep (8 hours a night)
+4 hours revisions
+9 hours cs
+1 hour digital logic
+3 hours dsp
+1 hour prelab
+1 hour stats
+2 hours mentoring
=96 hours
Now for hours in class
7 hours monday
+3 hours tuesday
+7 hours wednesday
+2 hours thursday
+4 hours friday
=23 hours
96+23=119 hours a week busy, which is worse than a full time job
hours a week=168
168-119=49 hours of free time, roughly 29% of the available hours of the day I can use to relax. Only a little less than a third of the week is my own, which means basically only saturday and sunday. This blows.

Saturday, September 06, 2003

I just spent over half an hour on one problem for digital logic. I had to prove that x+yz=(x+y)(x+z). I was doing way too complicated stuff (pardon my bad grammar). Michael was a EE for a couple years and so he was around and he figured it out in about 10 minutes. Yay for Michael! The worst part was that this was the first problem for this chapter. We figured out the proof is this:
(x+y)(x+z) = xx+xz+xy+yz = x+xz+xy+yz = x+xy+yz = x+yz
It's following the rules we learned, and it's much simpler than what I was attempting. I was using WAY too many rules. I broke my thumb nail, that one that was finally getting long. Now it's too short. I hate my nails. Mark, "the cute boy from work" just stopped by and grabbed a misaddressed mag that we couldn't forward and wants any info about getting a job at the front desk. He smelled strongly of smoke. Ewww.

i forget

So last night after we all went to the cafe I found that my back hurt, right above my tailbone. It felt like a bruise. I asked everyone about it and they said there was a red triangle there. I have no idea what it's from. I woke up this morning and the mark is gone but it still hurts really bad. I can't lay on my back. Now my butt hurts too, like on the bone, as if I've been sitting all day but I haven't because it started after I woke up and I was on my side all night.

the girl who borrowed my music to make a copy... she gave ME the copy. I had all my notes on the original and now I don't ahve those any more. I can't believe she did that. It's incredibly rude and as Marie said, "What a BITCH!"


So we reformatted my computer successfully. It's like 10 times faster, which is awesome. It doesn't take 5 minutes to boot up anymore, and outlook actually opens right away, instead of taking 2 minutes. YAY! One of my folders didn't survive the transition somehow. My MTU folder was in My Documents. I copied My Documents to Neal's harddrive, but MTU somehow didn't get copied while everything else did, including My Movies (which comes after MTU) so now I'm sad because there were some files there that I need for revisions and will have to retype. :( I'm still in the processing of changing my settings to what I like and stuff.

i forgot that a couple days ago when i did mail there was a package addressed to Michael Landon, the Little House on the Prairie guy. Hee hee!

Friday, September 05, 2003


In CS my ta did a handstand for us because he asked if we had any more questions and we asked if he could do one. K-Day was ok. We got there nice and early so we didn't have to wait in long lines for food. It was fun wandering around. There was this thing there where you pedal a bike and it goes in circles upside down and stuff. You raced against someone else and tried to see who went around the most. The current high was 31 in 1 minute. I went against Jeff, my RA and an avid biker. He got 22 and I got 19, but he was going backwards where it was harder. Most girls averaged 19 and the guys typically got a little higher. We both did it right after we ate (cotton candy too, yum) but luckily neither of us got sick. I felt like my legs cramped up though. THen we waited for the pep band to play. They were awesme and I got that on video. I have me on the ride on video too. Then Neal and I left (Erinn, Marie, and Kim stayed longer) and I realized I lost my sunglasses. We drove to Walmart and I bought some, plus cotton balls (they didn't have regular size, only jumbo, square, and circle... weirdos) and mouthwash and more stuff I don't need. Neal needed sweatpants for his softball game tomorrow. We get back to my car and there was a huge scruff mark on it, over 8" long. I tried to wipe it off and it just faded but is still there. It definitely wasn't there before because I have to manual lock my car so I take a look. I'm so mad that someone did this and didn't leave a note or anything. It better not cost a lot to get it fixed. I already need to get my oil changed and car vacuumed out and a car wash. Neal's currently reformatting my computer. I hope it gets better. We put everything I need to keep onto one of his hard drives. I won't be able to install everything since some of the disks are at home, but I have most of the important stuff. This is crucial that my computer work, because every item of homework I have due Monday needs a computer (my digital logic and cs program and revisions paper) and I haven't worked on any of it yet. I'm soooo stressed out and I'm already working 6 hours tomorrow. At least I'm not working Sunday. I forgot to say that at K-Day a guy there said to me, "Wads, East!" I'm like, "yeah..."
"Front desk!"
"You're from Chicago right?"
Apparently I talked to him the first day and we had talked about Chicago because he was from there and I TOTALLY don't remember but I pretended I did. Weird. I'm surprised he remembered me. He walked by the front desk today and said hi. I got my first paycheck, from like 3 weeks ago plus what I worked for training. 30 hours at 5.25 an hour. It says I can call a number and have it directly deposited so I'm gonna do that so I don't have to send it home every 2 weeks or get a bank account up here.


My computer is scaring me. Yesterday it restarted due to a bug check (this has happened once before and couldn't find any way to fix it) and today it restarted as soon as it was fully booted. Now my recycle bin says there's a file in it, but when I open it up there's nothing. I go to empty it and it says, "Are you sure you want to delete 'WINDOWS'?" which is REALLY bad because without that folder my computer can't operate so currently I can't empty my recycle bin and I don't understand why there's no files in it when I open it.

Thursday, September 04, 2003



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i had a dream that Neal and I were getting married saturday and i didn't have anything ready so went to walmart to buy it all but the people there were disabled and mean so i went to shopko. before we left i opened up neal's wedding present to me and it was some barretts like some i already have. my mom, and sisters were with. walmart was actually at home, and where best buy is. we saw all the wedding party on the way to the car, all wearing business suits. my mom pointed out my dad and i saw derek. the car was in the "underground color" parking area which meant that we had to enter a shack and go underground and drive the shack away. the shack was filled with cocoa puffs and i had to stand in the back and i got claustrophobic and it was gross. we got to shopko and the people there were really nice so we got our stuff and left. oh, and there i saw kim and erinn. kim was buying condoms for roger and she was saying how they had sex all the time and i'm like, "so do i!" and erinn's like, "me too!" the funny thing is that this is totally not the case and so crazy. then i was on a train with alli filling out some papers and sorting out some winter gloves which didn't have matches and looking for one for alli. a guy walked by with some girls and he kept flirting with alli, which i thought was funny.

Wednesday, September 03, 2003

w00t! i cheated though... i kept putting in my different usernames until i got weezer

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:Without My Flowers
You sound like:Weezer
You will be signed to:Dreamworks Records
Your emo lyrics are:"Don't make me hate you anymore than I can already"
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so the last song we played for wind symphony was incredible familiar but then i realized finally at the end that I had played this song before, at Elgin, first semester senior year, in a much abridged format. This original is much harder and like 3 pages. I played a 1 or 2 page version that was MUCH easier. Andrea, one of the new bassoonists finally got an instrument so she played today. She's nice. The girl to the right of me, a senior graduating in a semester, I think her name is megan, is quite annoying. She hums along out of tune and is off beats. She makes stupid comments much like smelly stalker Tim and she took my music today to make copies, even though she doesn't have a bassoon yet and can't practice it and she probably won't get one till next week. Now I can't practice. I keep thinking it's Thursday. Andrea told Alton that I was gonna be a music major, so that's how he knew. I have no idea if I'm spelling his name right.

so neal restarted my computer when we was messing with it and i had unsaved stuff. poo.

Steph's a sneak

Ah, I just had teh best giggle. I came back from class and found Marie at class and Erinn gone but the bathroom door open, the perfect opportunity. I ran int here and left secret notes, then I ran back and giggled. THen I ran in there and talked to random people, then ran back and giggled. Then Kim and I ran in with the soundtrack to Pirates of Penzance and intended to change the music that was playing but we couldn't figure out how and Erinn was about to open the door so we ran back to our room giggling. Our door was open so she heard us and I cracked up. Sooooo much fun. I made the mistake of messaging Robyn where she was. Now all these people are talking to her and she wasn't there, lol. I'm so devious. I've been planning this for awhile and I had to take the opportunity.

my audition

I did mail by myself till I had to leave for my audition. Aubrey never showed up. So I get to my audition early hoping to start early, but there was jazz band rehersing. Finally I get to audition and I immediately asked him about me missing 3 rehersals and he said to just email him about it. THen I started and played ok. I've done better in sound quality, but my technique was pretty good today compared to yesterday. I wasn't nervous at all, either. Then I played my slow piece then attempted the chromatic scale up to what I know. Attempted is too strong of a word. I did it, but I didn't try to go higher up to my full range (which is a whole extra octave). Then he had a hard time finding a sight reading piece for me. It was actually a cello part that was in C and I normally play in B-flat so I had to remember all natural. THere was one little part I messed up on so after I finished he let me do it again just to get it right so I was happy with it. He said I had a good audition and I told me about KSO and how he wasn't sure how many openings tehre were. I didn't even say I was interested in it, but hey, if I get in (it's hard to because it's a community band as well) I'll take it. Then I mentioned how I was going to be a music major and he said, "Yeah, you mentioned that." I did NOT mention that. He's weird, but nice so whatever.

i don't have a lj but it's close enough

Livejournal Mood Ring

is emotionally distant.

I bet no one's surprised that you never post your current mood. In fact, I bet most of your friends are so sick of you locking them out of your life that they hate you behind your back. Shame.

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so neal spilled koolaid all over his desk and floor and computer stuff and wall. i brought him my 409 and carpet cleaner (which i have cuz i spill so much) and helped him clean it up with my feet since it was hard to get to behind the wall. the good news: you can't really tell and i also have proof that when standing i still have arches. the bad news: neal wasted about an hour he needs for his homework that he put off (like a poster and a paper and something else).

i could NOT sleep last night. I remembered that I have mail duty at 12:30 but wind symphony audition at 1 so i'm kind of screwed. then i have 3 wind symphony rehersals i know of that i have to miss, and we're only allowed to miss 2. then i forgot to study for my dsp quiz, and i had stats homework that i wrote down that is due fri but we don't have class fri so i'm hoping it's not today.

i wore shorts today cuz yesterday when it was 64 degrees it became 82, but it's been several hours and it's still 64.

Tuesday, September 02, 2003

W00t! I bowled an 88 and a 116! Free bowling was way fun, with free pop and ice cream too.

W00t! There's a cubs fan in my hall, Adam, the one who is in charge of softball!

Monday, September 01, 2003

hahahhaha, i'm the evil hour stealer

I had a meeting at work an hour ago about our new schedule since we added a staff member. Michael said I worked too many hours last week so he cut some down. He got rid of 2 hours, but he added 2 mail shifts PLUS I got 2 hours every other week. People were like, that's too long (I have 4 hours every other week then) but I was like "nah, I did it before, I can do it again." Plus anything is better than working 6 hours answering phones all day. I can do homework or read or play neopets. Where else do I get paid to do neopets? Robyn has a lot of hours too. No one volunteered for hours, so it's no wonder I got more.

Jeff came by asking if I wanted to be social chair. I laughed and said no. He said, "No? You sure?" I'm quite sure. To Marie's no he said, "didn't think so." I think we'd be bad choices, considering we weren't too social last year, plus we're girls and would have no idea what the guys would want to do.


so i disappointed you
i’m sorry
i’m just too afraid
i don’t want to make a mistake
i don’t want to regret
do you think you can understand?
i don’t want you to change
but if that’s what it takes
then i will try to help you
just tell me what to do